Here's a little of how my lovely week went, honest and open(:
This last week was a little bit of a tougher one, for me personally. Over time, I've realized that I am a perfectionist, I have an ideal in my mind that of how I want things to turn out and how I want to be. And when it doesn't or if I don't live up to these expectations, I get frustrated and down on myself. And this week was one of those weeks.
Every day I got pretty stressed because I wasn't seeing the results I wanted to see. And when it comes down to it many things were out of my control, like people not being home. But then I always found a way to blame it on something I was doing wrong or should be doing, such as maybe we need to call or send a text message the day of so they remember our appointment and are home. And this is how my week flew by, stressed that we weren't living up to my expectations. I thought many times that we were trying and that we were in a preparation period (we've been really working and organizing the ward directory to find menos activos and with the relief society president!) and that we will see the results in the next few weeks, which maybe is true, but after thinking about my week and evaluating, I think the real reason why I was frustrated is that I knew I wasn't living up to my potential. We were doing everything that we should- we had citas, we were visiting menos activos, we were trying to find and follow the spirit and plan for the needs of our investigators, and much more but something was missing. And I think it was that I was focusing so hard on the things we weren't doing that it seemed impossible that we could do better the next day. But this is no way to improve!
I'm now going to tell some of the good things that happened this week.
Our investigador, Jesse, wants to know, with the most true intention I've seen, if this church is true. She has so much faith, and although she is learning little by little, I know one day she will receive an answer to her prayers. She thanked us deeply for the difference us and other missionaries have made in her life. Dennis told us he wants to be baptized, although he wants to wait until he knows more Spanish, he is willing to keep commandments, like word of wisdom, and fulfilling his commitments. Another miracle this week was the weather! A few days this week were cloudy and windy and it was so fresh and felt so good in the middle of this hot summer!
There really were many miracles this week and what I've come to find through prayer and personal study is that the only thing that matters in the end is what our Heavenly Father thinks of us. If we are doing our best and making sure to put in our intentional and honest effort to serve Him and do better, He will know and bless us. I'm excited for this week to give everything I have everyday, and actively search and find ways to live up to my potential and the potential we have working together in a companionship. Sometimes there are setbacks, but only to comeback even stronger than before! Because from them we learn. Well, to learn is a choice, but I should hope we always find something to learn from our experiences.
I hope you each have a great week! Remember God loves you and has a perfect plan for you!
Muchisimo amor,
Hermana Briggs
"When we are righteous, willing, and able, when we are striving to be worthy and qualified, we progress to places we never imagined and become part of Heavenly Father’s “divine design.” Each of us has divinity within us. When we see God working through us and with us, may we be encouraged, even grateful for that guidance. When our Father in Heaven said, “This is my work and my glory—to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man,” He was talking about all of His children—you in particular." --Elder Rasband
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